Ich bin verwirrt

Ich frage mich: "Am I anticipating something which won't happen?" Last time I kept convincing myself not to put too much hope on it, I was trying hard to manage my expectation such that I won't feel too bad if our agreement was void. However, given I didn't turn it off, actually I didn't give it up. At the very last moment before I felt asleep, well, it actually happened. That said, I understand this time isn't quite comparable because there isn't a word of trust. On the other hand, I hope G is doing fine and healthy. I'm not sure what's going on now... The experiment about my birthday was sucessfully conducted. Except a few samples were pretty confident in their beliefs, a few were made skeptical, and others were misled. Unfortunately, the passive sample size is too small to draw any meaningful conclusions on the entire population. The experiment was set up to investigate: 1) My social relationships with the people around me. 2) The effectiveness of ICQ info, personal web page and blogs as a means of personal information dissemination. [to be continued]