Chaos...

Life goes rather chaotic lately. Perhaps not lately, the changes should have taken over gradually... Of the gossips which I heard these days and the situations which I observed, I just think I should treasure what I have, and not to carvil so often, nor bothering myself with some silly, childish, meaningless slices. In fact, I should be among the blessed ones. Not that I have no troubles, but if I take them easy, they aren't really troubles at all. Sometimes I feel I am rather self-fish by taking this take-it-easy attitude, and escaping my own responsibilities, treating it like I will bear the consequences for myself. This might have too much idealized and simplfied the reality. The fact is many more people are involved. Maybe every one are better off if I chose something different. This is only a postulation that could never be verified. No matter what, the daily contacts within my closest acqaintance circle, should be classified as "easy-going". If they were all like aggressive R, I should have a lot more headaches. Okay, maybe there is a different story at my back, but I would rather be fooled and fool myself. Again, someday all these will be past. Don't drag on it.