Samstag, August 30, 2008

Nostophobia

Yesterday in the late night, the German consultant called me, exactly as he promised a week earlier. He asked me in a serious tone, if I still want to proceed with my application. "Yes", I replied. Did he want me to answer "no" instead? All these deeds originate from his unthoughtful suggestion, "all the technical positions are located in Germany. I can help you to forward your application to the head of development. We are good friends". Little did he thought about if his company hires a complete foreigner, the work permit, the interview arrangements, etc., as if my willingness to relocate was the only concern. In fact, I am a little bit surprised that he has been keeping his promises. He is more serious than I thought, but my "yes" probably sounded more determined than I really am. I feel my worries about starting a brand new life again, all alone, in a foreign little town in the less affluent NW. Without the beautiful Blackforest, the lovely Neckar, the "warm" southern Germans, and a group of fun-loving exchange students, can I still love my life in Germany as much as before? Be cautious, I am betting with my golden years. A job with 50% of travels is what I love and hate. After all, traveling around the world is not my ultimate goal. Maybe I simply want to live a plain normal life?

3 Kommentare:

舞者 hat gesagt…

Your mother's words must be still haunting you (you know which words they are). Before you find your mooring, it is perhaps best you get totally tired of floating around first, after all, you are still only 50% averse to floating around. After you have done all that, you can finally say you have lived your life without regrets.

Maize hat gesagt…

As an "amateur journalist", may I interview you if you feel tired of floating around?

舞者 hat gesagt…

Yes, terminally tired.