Be decisive please

In my office on the Christmas Eve Today, on the Christmas eve, the job agent was supposed to come at 2pm, and then I was supposed to sign my contract, and to throw my numerous worries aside, until I obtain my work permit. BUT... I have changed my mind at 1am, because of a phone call in the evening yesterday. I have decided to put myself at some risk, and get the "courage" to tell my boss "the plan". Apparently my mind is the sole agent driving me through my zig-zag trails. If only I don't need to care about fulfilling others' expectations, I'd then be a free entity... AND at 2pm, instead of signing my contract, I have resigned my job.